Thursday, January 18, 2007

Congratulations, universe. You win.

*Spoiler alert for Grey's Anatomy*

Cristina: There's a club, the Dead Dads Club. And you can't be in it until you're in it. You can try to understand. You can sympathize, but until you feel that loss...My dad died when I was nine. I'm really sorry you had to join the club.
George: I don't know how to exist in a world where my dad doesn't.
Cristina: Yeah, that never really changes.

That hit close to home. So close, in fact, that I was literally sobbing. We're talking tears rolling down my face, my body shaking, my eyes turning bloodshot. Despite my attempt to not really pay attention to the episode, knowing that there was a strong possibility that one of my favorite character's father was going to die from cancer -- like my dad did -- it still got to me.
And unfortunately it was one of those rare times when Brent wasn't here to console me, tell me it's ok and not laugh at me for crying during some silly nighttime soap. But sometimes the plot lines just bring the sadness up from the depth of my soul, where I try to stifle despair that comes from losing a parent way too early.
Brent is on his way home now, so soon we'll be immersed in tonight's 30 Rock and perhaps watch The Office, which I enjoyed earlier tonight before the sadness of Grey's.
"My father hated radio and could not wait for television to be invented so he could hate that too." - Peter De Vries


  1. I won't laugh at you.
    But I will laugh with you. When we sing harmony on "ANDY AND THE TUNA."

  2. I haven't seen it yet since I watch it on Fridays (streaming video) but I'm glad for the spoiler. Grey's makes me sob like a baby in almost every episode because of all the pregnancy/baby related stuff. Just reading those few lines made me tear up. Big hugs to you, Nanette.

  3. Jessica V9:05 AM

    I'm so sorry Nanners - I know I'm going to cry when I watch it this weekend, but as Christina's quote said, I'm not part of the club so can only imagine how hard it must have been for you. I hope Brent got home quickly to keep you company. Hugs! Jess

  4. Christy in VA10:14 AM

    I *heart* you Nanners SP!

  5. It's probably a good thing I don't watch that show. I was crying anyway last need for more tears.

    **Hugs** to you!!!

    I must say 30 Rock really keeps growing on me and I laughed a lot last night. I'm bummed that I missed last week's episode though as Tivo got sick and barfed a littled.

  6. My Dad died when I was Sixteen. So, I can Relate. I try to avoid Hospital Shows, as a result. (My Dad was in ICU for Four Months before he Passed Away.) Except I used to Really Like ER. But, i have found Grey's Anatomy sometimes Hard To Watch.

    I Cry when I see that Kodak Commercial with The Bride Dancing With Her Father. But, um, i also cried during Dreamgirls.

  7. How great is 30 ROCK? Such an awesome show.

  8. I can relate too. My dad died 7 years ago, but whenever I see a good father/daughter relationship, I have to choke it back. It's pretty tough isn't it?

  9. I too am a member of that club. I lost my father so young to lung cancer. I found myself crying. It just hurts. It's been 2 1/2 years but I miss him .

  10. I'm so sorry you experienced something like that. Thankfully I haven't, but I was still sobbing like a baby while watching it.