Wednesday, February 25, 2009

All over the place

I feel so uninspired to blog.

I have half a dozen drafts saved, but can't bring myself to hit "publish post" for any of them. No particular reason, I suppose.

I've been busy getting back in the swing of things at work. I think it's going well.

And my time at work makes me appreciate my time with Em so much.

Em is sleeping great at night lately - sometimes up only once. Mommy enjoys the extra sleep.

Sunday morning Em woke up with a slight fever but no other symptoms. Took her to Urgent Care, at pediatrician's request, just to be safe. Thought it was going to be the start of an upper respiratory infection, but fever was gone by early evening. Em was extra cheerful, and just wanted to party.

Life of the party

She was also extra cheerful tonight when I had to pick her up from daycare and bring her back to the office for a couple hours while my team and I finished putting out a work fire. She sat in her stroller and babbled, which was great to hear as we plugged away at the task at hand. Then she sat in my lap and gave giant smiles to everyone who came to fawn over her until our team was ready to leave.

I have some fun stuff coming up (a visit to a Top Chef contestant's restaurant, a blogger party, etc.), so hopefully I'll having something fun to post.

In the meantime, check out my brother-in-law's blog. He's working in Cambodia until July/August, and his chronicles are a crack-up.

"This company still doesn't recognize cat maternity." - Angela, The Office

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Back in the saddle again

Thanks, everyone, for the supportive comments and emails! Em sends her thanks, too.

Today went well!

It's going to take me a few days to figure out a smooth morning routine to get us out the door on time, but I wasn't obscenely late and my boss was totally understanding.

Em had a little meltdown upon our arrival, which turned out to be because of a diaper blowout en route. I had to rush out, though, so as not to be blocked in the driveway by the next parent. So no long good-bye, which helped with no tears on my end.

The daycare provider called me around noon to check in. Em was doing well, other than a crying battle with her 7-month-old daycare pal during their morning naps. One would calm down and the other would get riled up. But they made up and it was smooth sailing during their afternoon naps.

Tomorrow I'm going to visit and feed her during lunch, as the daycare is just a few minutes from my office. I hope to do that at least twice a week, depending on my workload, until she's old enough to have separation anxiety.

Work went quickly for me today. I spent a lot of the day trying to remember passwords, where stuff is saved and getting reacquainted with my responsibilities. And my co-workers seemed excited to have me back. One mentioned that it had been so quiet while I was gone. He meant that in a good way. Heh.

My super thoughtful in-laws surprised me with a vase of flowers, accompanied by a note "signed" by Em that said, "We'll both be fine, Mommy!" So very sweet!

I'm uploading some videos for myself when I need an Em fix. Here's one of my recent favs.

She's the best little face to come home to.

"Parents are the bones on which children sharpen their teeth." - Peter Ustinov

Monday, February 16, 2009

She works hard for the money

The final post of answers to questions is like an albatross around my neck. Not a bad one, though! More like a totally cute designer albatross that I was secretly hoping for, received and then had no time to take it to the tailor for a fitting. My other issue is that I'm so long-winded -- in person and in writing -- that I can't keep my answers short. Each response could be a post in itself.

Someday I'll finish, and it'll be glorious.

I've been busy soaking up all my time with Em as my maternity leave comes to an end tomorrow. It's been such a fast 4 1/2 months, yet I can't remember what it was like without her.

I'm ready, I think.

And I feel really good about our daycare situation, despite some hiccups and a last-minute switch. (More on that in an upcoming post.)

We did a daycare warm-up last week. On Tuesday my plan had been to hang out there with her, just to let Em know that Mommy was totally happy there so she should be, too. Epic fail. I sort of stood back while the daycare provider played with Em. My baby girl was pissed that I was there and not playing with her. I've never heard her cry so hard. Talking SOBS here, people. I put on a happy face, but it was tough. Wednesday-Friday she hung out there a few hours each day, sans Mommy, to get used to the daycare provider while I ran errands. Much, much better. She was happy and seemed to be adjusting nicely. Took bottles with no issue, and gave me big beaming smiles upon my arrival.

I won't lie - I've shed some tears, including some just before I started this post when I received two really sweet emails from two really sweet friends wishing me luck for my return to the workforce.

It's tough to think about someone else spending their days with our sweet girl. But it's what has to happen at this point in time. I need to work, and I do want to work (sorta). As always, I'm optimistic. She'll be just fine, as will I.

"I give you a simple, managerial suggestion and get back the second half of a Judy Blume novel." - Jack, 30 Rock

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Lights, camera, action!

Em turned 4 months old today. A quarter of a year has already passed since her arrival. She is growing so quickly! And apparently with age comes some attitude.

Our baby girl was quite the diva during our monthly photo shoot tonight.


"I'M the star here!"

"These blocks don't look organic to me. Didn't you read my rider? You probably didn't pick out all the yellow M&Ms in my dressing room either, huh?"

"I'm sorry, but I typically don't get out of bed for less than $10K."

"I kid, I kid!"

"Hey! What are you doing here? Yes, let's do lunch soon! I'll have my people call your people."

"Ok, let's wrap this shoot up. Here's my signature pose - The Poop Face."
"You want me to do what?"

"I have to make sure that YouTube comes down to film this." - Michael, The Office

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Answer me, part II

I promise that I'll get through all these questions eventually! I really do appreciate them!

What's next on your concert agenda/who would you like to see next? - From Jodi

It seemed like so many of my favorite artists hit LA in October, right before and after I had Em. I'm so sad to have missed Ray LaMontagne, so I'm hoping he'll make another appearance soon. I have been able to catch one great show since Em's arrival - John Mayer at the Nokia theater in Downtown LA. It was just him and his guitar. Simply fabulous.

I have 2 questions for you Nanners: Where did your friend get you those Hello Kitty cookie cutters? and where are your favorite places to shop for clothes? - From Sarah

My friend says this about the cookie cutters. "They're no longer online. I bought them back in Oct when I went to the Sanrio outlet in Gilroy. I was just there again this past weekend and they have no more. The sales girl told me they come out w/ new cookie cutters every year so hopefully they'll have a new set out soon."

As for my favorite places to shop for clothes, I love to shop the sales at Ann Taylor Loft and Banana Republic but haven't been there since before I got pregnant. However, I'd say most of my wardrobe these days is from Old Navy and Target.

Hmmmm.. Do you want more children? (aka was the birth not as scary as one boston blogger would think?!) - From Julie Q

Yup, we'd love to expand our family. But I won't say how many more or our timeline as my blog audience includes grandparents who might be on us if we don't keep to our word.

I'm going to be totally crude and I want the truth behind your labor and the pain! :-) Was labor what you thought it would be? - Mrs. Twink
Ha! Well, I didn't expect to go into labor two weeks early. I thought I had at least a week before Em decided to bust into the world. Labor itself was totally surreal and went by really quickly. I was also surprised by how quickly I lost all modesty.

Truth be told, I've never had menstrual cramps, so I wasn't used to any sort of pain like that. (Not that cramps probably feel anything like labor pain, but you know what I'm getting at.) That's probably why I was particularly surprised by the sensation of labor pains. After I got the epidural, which I totally recommend, it was more about the pressure of contractions than any pain. As for Em's actual physical entrance? Happened so quickly, and it was more than I could have ever imagined.

More questions and answers to come! In the meantime, I'll be hanging out with this little cutie.

My love

"Having once decided to achieve a certain task, achieve it at all costs of tedium and distaste. The gain in self-confidence of having accomplished a tiresome labor is immense." - Arnold Bennett