Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Bump Watch 2013: 38 Weeks
I won't lie -- the past few days have been dragging, and I'm trying to remind myself that it could be up to another THREE WEEKS before her arrival. So simmer down now, Nanette. It's strange to be running errands like each day could be my last "free" day out of the house for a while, but it could be just because we don't know when she's going to decide to arrive.
My hospital bag is packed. Em's bag for Grandma's and Grandpa's is almost done. Brent's? Well, he might be thinking about starting to try to pack. We'll see.
Mimi's car seat (and her base in Brent's car) are installed, and Em's seat has been moved from the middle to behind the driver's side. I think it's heightened Em's excitement because each time we drive anywhere she asks, "When is my sister going to get here?!"
The other day while I was setting up Mimi's room, Em came in and said she was going to play with some of her old baby toys we've relocated there. I told her sure, and as she pulled it down from the shelf, she said, "Mommy, you better ask her if it's ok." Then I suggested she ask. So she yelled at my belly, "Baby sister! I'm going to play with your toys, ok?!"
Then I died from cuteness.
In all seriousness, though, I've had some waves of guilt about how our dynamic is going to change with another kid. Brent may or may not have walked in on me having a crying fit last week, feeling guilty that Em isn't going to be the center of our everything, worrying how she's going to adjust, how I'm going to continue to make sure she knows she's loved and give her the attention she needs and deserves. And it's not just Em. I worry about balancing my attention and giving Mimi all she needs, too. Part of me knows that it's going to be just fine, but part of me still panics about it all.
Despite my fits of worry, I'm feeling as ready as I can be. We're all looking forward to welcoming this little one into our family -- whenever she's ready.